Somebody

I was always alone

Always wanting to be at ease

But being on my own

Was never that easy

It always felt lonesome

Like a deep emptiness

That no one seems to understand

But I guess it was for the best

On a different circumstance

If I would be given the chance

I wish to become that someone

Not just somebody, but "The One"

To be chosen over all others

To be wanted and cherished

Might've felt great to be a lover

And be taken in and cared

I've given it a lot of thought

But still made a lot of mistakes

Guess it wasn't an easy fight

At least I played my stakes

Just a shame I never won

The games' are very difficult

No regrets on being a part of it, though

Even when sometimes I'm not at fault

If I'll be allowed

I think I can give it my all

I've got what it takes

I'm pretty capable

I admit, I'm not the perfect guy

I could be a handful

But, on my defense

I can actually be wonderful

Guess it's not my time yet

But how long will I have to wait

It's just that I feel like I'm nearing my end

And, I'm getting antsy with much hate

Always thinking that I did wrong

Always blaming my actions

Always trying to hold on

But doing nothing for so long

I've already checked all windows

Opened a lot of doors

But I'm still stuck in the same room

In the same place as before

Haven't I looked enough

Or did I already miss what I'm looking for

Feels like I'm already lost and tired

Now, I'm just waiting to be found

Will you ever find me before I'm gone

Before my heart tilts into the depths

And fall into the void and be done

Will you arrive before I get stranded

Still, I'm hopeful and hurting

For that one day, when we'll find each other

Until then, I'll keep searching and waiting

Wishing for our best and worst encounter