When I was a child, about before my teenage years, I wished to have lots of friends. I didn't pay attention to the family that I already have because I always felt sorry for myself for being alone. In high school, I've never felt lonelier. I always thought that it was the worst part of my life.
But then you grow up, and each year that passes by makes you feel a bit numb. I realized, I kept wishing for something that I will always never have. Each and every birthday was a disastrous ruination of my expectations, and yet, I always let myself become hopeful of what I would want to have.
Then the day of my birthday arrives, and all expectations and hopes are up. Until the day ends up with me getting disappointed. I know everyone's trying their best to live their own lives now and I cannot become selfish for my own wants.
But it won't stop me from wishing for that one thing ever since I entered the adulting life. And right now that my birthday is coming up, I begin to set my expectations and hopes for yet another thing that can never happen - A single, whole day with everyone I love; my parents, my siblings, my friends, my children, and my wife all gathered together to celebrate the day that I was born.
You can say that it'd be selfish and that I'm so full of myself. But it's my special day and I believe I deserve the right to wish for anything that I want - even if it had to be a dream that might never come true.
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